As many know at this point last week I was rushed to another emergency surgery for ruptured ectopic pregnancy. I have spent the last week going through a mixture of emotions. Asking God Why and How and REALLY!!! I honestly feel that this is exactly where God would have me be at this time. After "having it out with God" he woke me this morning and spoke "Why Not You" you have my strength and grace to finish this race, I chose you because you have everything inside of you to fight and to continue to give God the Glory. I realized today that I entitled this Blog "The Journey" and a journey is describes as traveling from one place to another, usually taking a long time. Another definition is a passage or progress from one stage to another. I like that I am on a journey and along the way their may be pitfalls and valleys but OOH when I see the end of my Journey when I truly see the blessing God has Just For Me!! What a wonderful day that will be. Until then I will keep walking it out it out and claiming this is my breakout season so get out the way!!!!
I am excited he chose me for this! Like our friend Job when he felt everything was stripped away from him, He never lost faith in God he may have questioned his tactics but he never lost faith. I am going to be that GOOD and Faithful Solider. I will see the expected end I will continue on this Journey.
I Thank God for all my family and friends who have poured out their prayers and kind words to Jason and I. It truly makes a difference when going through. I know you all can be encouraged by my walk and my testimony because it is going to be powerful... Hey it already is.
The devil is trembling because I got back up with more power with more faith and more fight. I will see my babies. But right now I am glad that my two angels are in heaven preparing a place for when Mommy and Daddy get there looking after us here on earth, cheering us along the way. They were to good for this earthly world but heaven is forever.
I received the pathology report today and my right tube was unsalvagable due to the rupture and the doctor said the embryo was right at the opening of my uterus this time but that the tube had some outpocketing (polyps) right at that opening that prevented the baby from entering the uterus.
I know one thing God answered my prayer which was to get pregnant without any means but him to have the experience of a positive pregnancy test and the joy of accomplishing something I was afraid couldn't happen. I conceived and the next step will be a successful pregnancy than birth.
Please follow me on this journey its not over yet!!!!
Signed
Encouraged and Blessed Beyond Measure
Jay'R's MoM
