Slacker Blogger

Okay I know it's been a while since I have blogged. But I will complete everything I start before the end of the year. God has truly been great over the last few months! My journey to motherhood is soon to become a reality. I've had some slight setbacks but as I grow complete in him I no longer have that feeling of sadness or incompleteness. I have really been enjoying my husband and have started on my latest career move.... grad school!! I am in my second semester of  my nurse practitioner program at georgetown.  It's intense going to school and working full time but I'm graced for it!!

I am headed to surgery Monday for them to clear my uterus of polyps and anything that would prevent my seeds from falling on good ground. Knowing and with Confidence my babies are coming.

I am so inspired by the many woman who are working and setting an example for their children. I believe my struggles are for a greater calling than I can imAgine. I want to become an NP to help woman nota have to struggle and Assist them with their reproductive needs.

God is the Zoie of life. I believe he promised us all children. But if we look at the woman in the bible he thought it noteworthy to tell the stories of infertile woman who believed in go but not necessarily that the you'll have children. In fact they would openly deny it when he said he would Sara laughed, Genesis 18:12 Therefore Sarah laughed within herself, saying, “After I have grown old, shall I have pleasure, my lord being old also?”

Elizabeth hid it for 6 months but knew god had took away her reproach. 

All I know is I'm going to be like Mary- be it unto me according to Gods will.

Looking ahead and not back as I prepare for my IVF journey in January!! Declaring good results and firm implantation of perfect eggs!!

IVF- my process

SOO EXCITED!! I started my orientation for IVF today. Looking forward to the incredible journey.. www.bestivf.com is a incredible site. I am blessed that I am here in this area because so many others had to travel far to be apart of this cycle. There are only four areas in the country that do IVF for military members, Cali, Texas, Hawaii, and Maryland.  Also the program has a 98% success rate and is headed to the best IVF center in the COUNTRY!!! God favors me!! Looking forward to my first cycle I pray success on first try in my first cycle of IVF>

Still Believing

I am still believing. I have come to the realization God wants to do something supernatural in my life. I may have physically lost two tubes and it may look like I will not be able to conceive. However OUR God is greater that he has developed through the mind of Carl Wood, The father of in vitro fertilization. Professor Wood and his team from Melbourne's Monash University pioneered IVF as an option for infertile couples in the 1970s.
The gynaecologist and his team helped develop the world's first IVF pregnancy in 1973 and Australia's first test tube baby, Candice Reed, was born in 1980. His team was also responsible for the world's first babies from frozen embryos and donor eggs.
Prof Wood is also credited with pioneering IVF in the United States in partnership with an American businesswoman.  He has helped more than 45,000 babies born worldwide through IVF.

I have my first appointment June 19th. I am excited!! I also need all that believe to help me believe GOD for the financial aspect of IVF. Thanking God for the assistance of military my out of pocket cost will be $5,000. I have contacted my congressman and also Navy Admiral for assistance with Grants and scholarships.
I Still Believe.

The Journey Continues.....

As many know at this point last week I was rushed to another emergency surgery for ruptured ectopic pregnancy. I have spent the last week going through a mixture of emotions. Asking God Why and How and REALLY!!! I honestly feel that this is exactly where God would have me be at this time. After "having it out with God" he woke me this morning and spoke "Why Not You" you have my strength and grace to finish this race, I chose you because you have everything inside of you to fight and to continue to give God the Glory. I realized today that I entitled this Blog "The Journey" and a journey is describes as traveling from one place to another, usually taking a long time.  Another definition is a passage or progress from one stage to another. I like that I am on a journey and along the way their may be pitfalls and valleys but OOH when I see the end of my Journey when I truly see the blessing God has Just For Me!! What a wonderful day that will be. Until then I will keep walking it out it out and claiming this is my breakout season so get out the way!!!!

I am excited he chose me for this! Like our friend Job when he felt everything was stripped away from him, He never lost faith in God he may have questioned his tactics but he never lost faith. I am going to be that GOOD and Faithful Solider. I will see the expected end I will continue on this Journey.

I Thank God for all my family and friends who have poured out their prayers and kind words to Jason and I. It truly makes a difference when going through. I know you all can be encouraged by my walk and my testimony because it is going to be powerful... Hey it already is.

The devil is trembling because I got back up with more power with more faith and more fight. I will see my babies. But right now I am glad that my two angels are in heaven preparing a place for when Mommy and Daddy get there looking after us here on earth, cheering us along the way.  They were to good for this earthly world but heaven is forever.

I received the pathology report today and my right tube was unsalvagable due to the rupture and the doctor said the embryo was right at the opening of my uterus this time but that the tube had some outpocketing (polyps) right at that opening that prevented the baby from entering the uterus.
I know one thing God answered my prayer which was to get pregnant without any means but him to have the experience of a positive pregnancy test and the joy of accomplishing something I was afraid couldn't happen. I conceived and the next step will be a successful pregnancy than birth.

Please follow me on this journey its not over yet!!!!


Signed

Encouraged and Blessed Beyond Measure

Jay'R's MoM

A New Week of Development

My Baby is the size of a blueberry this week.!! Wow But it is amazing how this little blueberry has a beating heart, little folds for fingers and toes, and kidney's!! God is so amazing. It takes him nine glorious months to form a baby in our womb but it only took him 6 days to form the world. It truly means he put great thought and care when he created us. I love how he is so specific with every detail of his creation. This week I am praying for peace of mind because I found out so soon these weeks seem to be dragging and I cant  wait to see my little blueberry on the screen in my uterus!!

Motherhood is awesome already. I just keep thinking wow life is growing inside of me. LIFE like an actual being is growing day by day minute by minute second by second.  WOW!!!

Mostly all of my Family and Close friends know now and it means so much to me to have their love and support through this process as many have prayed and believed with me for this day. Their true joy an concern for our child and my health brings me to tears. I couldn't ask for a better support group from my VCMI church family to my Oldest and Dearest Friend who I shared the news with yesterday (Monica)! 

I had my HCG labs checked this morning 4400 from 1600 last week. The nurse was going to check to see if I could get an U/S sooner than my 10 week mark but I haven't heard back from her. Trusting that it is well and believing Jay'R is growing big and strong. In his twin sister or brother tooo!! ( My husband is claiming twins) we shall see. DOUBLE for my Shame...

Joy

Joy unspeakable Joy!! Jay'R is already being a blessing to so many. As I tell my testimony to others about my pregnancy, I am amazed at their reaction and how much joy it gives them. I am thankful to God for this wonderful gift of life. I feel absolutely amazing....! I have energy besides the occasional winds of tired ness, yesterday I had to take a nap at my desk for 20 min.. I could not get it together.

God puts people in your path for us to see him. I ran into a woman I was deployed with on the ship to Haiti today! We stayed in the same room together and I remember praying with her in the mornings and she was believing god for her husband and me for baby! Today she is engaged to be married and December and I am expecting a baby!! LOOK AT GOD!!!

I plan to get plenty of rest this weekend and do some spring cleaning!! Got to make room for the babies! Jason is claiming twins.,,,,,,, Double for our shame!! I say it is well!! However God blesses me I'll be satisfied!!

Week Six A little emotional~~

So today I awake with a defeated spirit. I went to bed looking over our finances and wondering how and what we are going to do. Then this morning them old thoughts of where I was three years ago and how I felt so much joy and happiness about being pregnant and then hearing that nurses voice "Well the reason why you don't feel pregnant is because your not!!" I started talking myself into a fury. Called my husband and he reminded me of our prayers and prayed for me. Still not feeling 100% I started praying and called on my pastor for some encouragement. She mentioned why was my appt so far away and shouldn't they want to monitor me more closely due to my past experience/ So called the OB/GYN Triage Nurse and went to her office to see her. WHY DID I Break down crying hysterically/ LOL She ordered me a lab in my HCG level went from 262 to 1163. So its up!!! She told me not to stress and if I wanted to come get me level checked every week until my first appt/ I could./ So I am reminded that

Psalms 34:14 Depart from evil and do good. Seek peace and pursue it.
Isaiah 26:3 God will keep me in perfect peace, if my mind is stayed on him, because he trust me
Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard my heart and MIND through Jesus Christ


TOMORROW IS MY OFFICIAL WEEK 6!!

Thank you Jay"R for allowing me to be your mom and Jason to be your Dad. We love you and know you are growing healthy and strong. See you in 34 Weeks!!!

5 weeks, 4 days!

No nausea or sickness just joy joy joy! Jason is more tired than me and eating crazy things. I can hardly eat at all. Today at Prayer Breakfast we had eggs and hams that mede me feel funny and sick!

The Positive Pregnancy Test

What joy it is to see that plus sign on that pregnancy test.

So here is the best story ever.....!!

At the beginning of the year our pastors had preached how this was the year of release. Everything we have been praying for was going to come in this year. So we fasted and believed during the month of January and worked out getting fit for the kingdom. I started working out and praying weekly and really just enjoying the life God had given me. I was not consumed anymore about having a baby.

So February 9-11 we went to a marriage getaway with our church and had an awesome time. I was on my cycle then and can remember praying to God it would dry up so I could get it in!!! Well we did !!

The next week on Feb 15th I had a followup appointment regarding a polyp that GOD had miraculously removed when I went for surgery last October. I was being seen by fertility doctors and looking into possible IVF. My husband wasn't really on board with this but knew it was important to me. He had complete FAITH that GOd was going to bless us with children. So during this follow up appointment I inquired about the next step to concieve with "help" Doctor recommended Clomid a drug to help with ovulation. The doctor however didn't really believe I had a problem ovulating because I had regulaur periods. Honestly I had everything checked out to make sure everyting was in working order and looking back on everything I would do the same thing because Wisdom gave me direction to ensure all things were in working order so GOD could do the rest.

So I am waiting waiting to start this medicine on the third day of my cycle. And after being three days late, i begin to wonder about preganncy. I allowed one week to go by before taking a test and finding out I HAD A POSITIVE PREGNANCY TEST and there would be no three days of my cycle because I was pregnant already without any help from MAN only from GOD!!

My Story

Ok where do I start??? So much has happen and when I look back and see how God planned every move and ordered my every step I am in complete AWE!! I have experienced great joy and great pain over the last three years. In 2009 I had the pleasure of meeting and falling in love with my best friend and soul mate and after a few short months of dating we found out we were having a baby!!! My first pregnancy and I was soooo excited. I quickly told everyone the joy but really had some condemnation in my heart because we weren't married and living in two different places. However I was excited about the gift of life. Well that feeling quickly turned into distress and panic as after our first OB/GYN appt we found out we "miscarried" and was sent home. Two days later on July 4, After a misdiagnosis, internal bleeding, emergency surgery, and ruptured fallopian tube... I was devastated as I no longer was carrying life but defeat.

July 4, 2009 was not my independence day it was my DOOM's day. I began to dread and mourn the day. I hated to see pregnant woman hear about pregnancy or anything.

July 31, 2010 I married my wonderful supportive husband and we began our life together. We built our house together found a wonderful church home and really learned how to love and honor US.


I never got over the idea of not having a baby and the odd's seemed against me. I wasn't able to get pregnant right away and after "trying" for practically three years, I began to question the possibility. This is when I began my quest for a supernatural childbirth!!


Join me!