So today I awake with a defeated spirit. I went to bed looking over our finances and wondering how and what we are going to do. Then this morning them old thoughts of where I was three years ago and how I felt so much joy and happiness about being pregnant and then hearing that nurses voice "Well the reason why you don't feel pregnant is because your not!!" I started talking myself into a fury. Called my husband and he reminded me of our prayers and prayed for me. Still not feeling 100% I started praying and called on my pastor for some encouragement. She mentioned why was my appt so far away and shouldn't they want to monitor me more closely due to my past experience/ So called the OB/GYN Triage Nurse and went to her office to see her. WHY DID I Break down crying hysterically/ LOL She ordered me a lab in my HCG level went from 262 to 1163. So its up!!! She told me not to stress and if I wanted to come get me level checked every week until my first appt/ I could./ So I am reminded that
Psalms 34:14 Depart from evil and do good. Seek peace and pursue it.
Isaiah 26:3 God will keep me in perfect peace, if my mind is stayed on him, because he trust me
Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard my heart and MIND through Jesus Christ
TOMORROW IS MY OFFICIAL WEEK 6!!
Thank you Jay"R for allowing me to be your mom and Jason to be your Dad. We love you and know you are growing healthy and strong. See you in 34 Weeks!!!
Its ok to be emotional... but you cant let it consume you. Worry, Doubt and Fear should no longer be words of your vocabulary. You have to reaplce those thoughts with Faith, Expectancy and Happiness. Expectancy is your friend at this moment! Whenever you feel yourself begin to question and wonder and doubt - just replace that with positive affirmations and remember ... this experience will never come again (surely you may get pregnant again, but it wont be the same) ... embrace the power of this experience. Yours is differnt from anyone elses and no other will be like this one. Stay focused on the true joy of this experience .. LIFE!!! its hard work growing in there, lol!!!
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That's it Kameel! I have to change my confessions and affirmations because this is true joy! Thanks for the positive encouragement! I truly love you and need you every step of the way.
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